Knowing that our lives change every single day, knowing that we as humans are the ones responsible for this happening, makes me realize that there is no such thing as an impossible task or an unachievable goal. After all, we are the ones who set those goals. However, knowing that there is no limit to what I can accomplish, makes me delay my duties with the assumption that I will “get there” sooner or later. Because of this, I end up coming up with something that I’m not completely satisfied with. I assume that my greatest struggle will be organizing a schedule for myself around these assignments. I chose to see this as a challenge. Accepting my assignments as my primary responsibility and sticking to the timelines will allow me to be more productive.
I know without a doubt,the attribute that aids me the most in my professional career is my faith on never being afraid of struggling .The willingness to fight no matter the odds,despite the uncertainty of what the outcome might be.
The professional world tends to focus on the material, perhaps rightly so,but as we all know in its core money is nothing but a piece of paper,something that can be torn in half with minimal effort or be blown away with the slightest gust of wind.I prefer to focus on the spiritual gains that my work might bring me,how it might help grow.I have had a few jobs where I want necessarily making a lot of money but stuck to it because of what it added to the experiences that I had already gained.I realized how much precious time I had been wasting,how the constant pursuit of money was blocked creativity,confidence and sense of adventure.This realization lets me see things in a different light, I started pursuing things I was really interested in and I realized how much this thrilled me.
I realized that everything,and anything,that blocks our imagination I an attack on the very concepts of freedom and creativity.this is how I started moving towards music and sound.I believe these experience will help me on this path because I’m certain that I will see it through to the end.
I read once that ” Sound ” is one of humanity most vital components. Through out history,as the years have passed,we have continued to question our existence and our search for a comforting answer.
We first resorted to scripture,however there are examples of mankind resorting to music or even singular sound to sum up periods ranging from millions of years to just a few dozen,a primary example of this is the “aum” sound found in Hinduism.It is also known first sound of humankind.
In my pursuit of ” meaning ” and with the backing of my family I enrolled in the history of art course at the University of Kocaeli in Turkey. One day,the University held a conference titled “universal music”. During that conference, as the musicians performed on stage, as the Iranians played the Kamancha accompanied by Americans Saxophone,as Israeli and Palestinian musicians shared the same stage,I realized that what was forming on that stage held more power than any government on the face of Earth, that music is one of the greatest forms of expression,of freedom,peace and serenity, that it was so powerful that it did not even need any words to do all this , just SOUND. I realized that day that i needed to be part of this power.I had found my calling, a path to spread happiness for myself and others, a field where i could push myself to my limits. I started pursuing various types of audio related jobs,including stints at the Afyonkarahisar Modern Classical Music and Jazz Festival,The Kasdav high school music competition in Istanbul among the other smaller jobs.
I am confident that one day that i will open my own studio if the circumstances are permitting,spread the spirit of music in Turkey from university concert halls back out into the streets. We have a rich musical culture,and perhaps we need to be reminded of that passion of ours,especially during these dark days. All we need is sound to stick together.